Today felt kind of hard and exhausting for me.
Fasting BS-137
2 hours after lunch-135
2 hours after dinner 116
I'm not sure how come my number are backwards. Because my fasting BS is what is so high, instead of my after meal numbers, that are almost normal considering that I've not been able to get myself to a store to buy healthier food yet, not til next week sometime. So I'm going to ask around some of the diabetic support groups I've joined, to try an find out if they know what could cause this, otherwise I'll talk to my dietician on August 9th.
Another good thing is that its getting easier an easier to test my blood sugar. I don't cringe as much when the lancet makes that horrid 'click' noise, and I just feel alot more in control of my situation by doing it. Today was the first day I tested 3 times, but I think i might make it a habit, so I can have better control.
I know I talk lots about medical stuff in this blog, an it's like yeah thats what I made it fro too. But I might try to stick some of my ramblings into it as well. I think alot of my needing to do things this way is that often I don't feel comfortable venting about medical stuff in front of the whole world an so at least I know that the people that come here, do it becaue they WANT to, an not cause my message came up on the reccent messages list.
But tonight I am so tired and shaky and my wrists hurt, an so tonight, I am just going to end it here and go to bed I think. I didn't get alot of sleep last night and so I think that may have been why I felt so off tonight. i might take a melatonin to help me sleep along with my other night meds.
Goodnight friends!
Fasting BS-137
2 hours after lunch-135
2 hours after dinner 116
I'm not sure how come my number are backwards. Because my fasting BS is what is so high, instead of my after meal numbers, that are almost normal considering that I've not been able to get myself to a store to buy healthier food yet, not til next week sometime. So I'm going to ask around some of the diabetic support groups I've joined, to try an find out if they know what could cause this, otherwise I'll talk to my dietician on August 9th.
Another good thing is that its getting easier an easier to test my blood sugar. I don't cringe as much when the lancet makes that horrid 'click' noise, and I just feel alot more in control of my situation by doing it. Today was the first day I tested 3 times, but I think i might make it a habit, so I can have better control.
I know I talk lots about medical stuff in this blog, an it's like yeah thats what I made it fro too. But I might try to stick some of my ramblings into it as well. I think alot of my needing to do things this way is that often I don't feel comfortable venting about medical stuff in front of the whole world an so at least I know that the people that come here, do it becaue they WANT to, an not cause my message came up on the reccent messages list.
But tonight I am so tired and shaky and my wrists hurt, an so tonight, I am just going to end it here and go to bed I think. I didn't get alot of sleep last night and so I think that may have been why I felt so off tonight. i might take a melatonin to help me sleep along with my other night meds.
Goodnight friends!
This morning my fasting blood sugar was 124! And with only being back on medication just for 8 days, i was very happy with that number with the anticipation that they would simply keep getting lower and lower. And then let's see for breakfast I had two peices of toast with very little butter. Then at lunch I had the other half of my portion of spagetti from last night. (I am getting better with being able to half the portions i normally would have eaten) and for a snack I had a 17 carb serving of doritos. And then at dinner I had a hormel kids entree of beans and weinies....it was a 37 carb meal so not too bad really since my dietician says i am allowed 45 for a meal and 15 for snacks. And 2 hours after dinner it was....107! That is the lowest number I have seen yet and i am sooo proud of myself. So I had a 16 carb serving of a little debbie snack, just for a treat for myself, but not an overload of a treat because I cut the snack in half and put it in a baggie for tomorrow!
I'm really really happy with this progress, because after being out of control for so long I think i have finally found something that truly will work, I have a doctor who truly listens and life just feels good and very happy.
The only really kinda bad thing is that my body isn't used to these normal blood sugar levels still....and so i get alot of headaches and low energy and nausea, but soon my body will remember what normal blood sugar feels like and i'll be back to reallllly zooming again! It's sad that I'm anxious to go back to my doctor and show him this progress,....an also find out how my blood pressure and cholesterol levels are too....but i gotta wait for now!
Da zoomer!!
I'm really really happy with this progress, because after being out of control for so long I think i have finally found something that truly will work, I have a doctor who truly listens and life just feels good and very happy.
The only really kinda bad thing is that my body isn't used to these normal blood sugar levels still....and so i get alot of headaches and low energy and nausea, but soon my body will remember what normal blood sugar feels like and i'll be back to reallllly zooming again! It's sad that I'm anxious to go back to my doctor and show him this progress,....an also find out how my blood pressure and cholesterol levels are too....but i gotta wait for now!
Da zoomer!!
This morning my fasting BS (blood sugar reading after i didnt eat for at least 8 hours, or in this case 12 heh) was 135!! and that is so super good considering how bad my initial sugar reading was 349! and then tonight 2 hours after eating, a fairly card loaded meal, not on purpose, we just didn't have anything else fast and easy around, it was 131!!
Those numbers are within my target range of 140, an so soon i may get a new range of under 130 to aim for and it makes me so proud that just a week after being so unstable i am already getting so much better! I might get kinda fascinated with my numbers for a bit, but it's just because of how badly i do want to get better and be healthier.
I'm going to start using my ab roller and weights and other small exercise equitment i got again soon. and I even want to see about going and swimming at the YMCA sometime soon too. and me and my mommy worked out some good healthy meal plan ideas for when we go shopping next week! So all in all things have turned around alot for me. Sometimes the meds still make me a little drowsy and dizzy, and sometimes I have a bit of a yucky tummy ache because my body doesn't really know how to handle these more normal blood sugar levels, and other diabetics I've talked to, have compared it to your body being de-toxed of all of the sugar, and so my body has to learn what it feels like to be at normal numbers and then I will feel sooo much better!!
And so for now, I'm pretty happy today! An I also went to see my councilor, an cept you can read bout that in my blogs at GI, Phoenix Hope and the halian home.
~zooooooooomms!!~
Those numbers are within my target range of 140, an so soon i may get a new range of under 130 to aim for and it makes me so proud that just a week after being so unstable i am already getting so much better! I might get kinda fascinated with my numbers for a bit, but it's just because of how badly i do want to get better and be healthier.
I'm going to start using my ab roller and weights and other small exercise equitment i got again soon. and I even want to see about going and swimming at the YMCA sometime soon too. and me and my mommy worked out some good healthy meal plan ideas for when we go shopping next week! So all in all things have turned around alot for me. Sometimes the meds still make me a little drowsy and dizzy, and sometimes I have a bit of a yucky tummy ache because my body doesn't really know how to handle these more normal blood sugar levels, and other diabetics I've talked to, have compared it to your body being de-toxed of all of the sugar, and so my body has to learn what it feels like to be at normal numbers and then I will feel sooo much better!!
And so for now, I'm pretty happy today! An I also went to see my councilor, an cept you can read bout that in my blogs at GI, Phoenix Hope and the halian home.
~zooooooooomms!!~
I got my new glucose monitor today finally. It talks! Which is a very weid thing, because I thought i would have to pay extra money to get one that talked, so I feel kinda lucky about that! And the poker thing is not really even as bad as my old one was. My old one really was old! I got it in 2002 an so this one, I barely even felt the thing and it was just kinda sore for 5 minutes! So I'm going to not have as much motivation about being poked now and then maybe they will be able to make sure my blood sugar stays normal!
I went to my mental health screening tonight and it was really boring, and also really kind of scary. The guy there talked to me lots and asked me lots of questions about my symptoms, and that was hard because alot of times I don't really know what it is that makes me feel like this, and so I wish he would have let my mommy come in and tell him stuff, but he said he had to hear it from just me! ~pouts~
And then i had to talk to this boring lady about financial aide stuff, so she could make sure my insurance pays for their services, and it does so that was over fast!
And then I had to talk to another lady who was kinda mean, she made it sound like I want to be sick, and so i don't work because of that, instead of listening that I really got like no immune system and not only that but now my blood sugars are all messed up and my blood pressusre too! But soon I got to talk to the last person of the day, and she is called a case manager, and she told me how they will have small group meetings, so i could meet other people who struggle with the same things I do, and also they have people who teach stess and anger management and lots of things I know I need.
Tomorrow is my councilor appointment....so that's all for now, my day was very very busy!!
I went to my mental health screening tonight and it was really boring, and also really kind of scary. The guy there talked to me lots and asked me lots of questions about my symptoms, and that was hard because alot of times I don't really know what it is that makes me feel like this, and so I wish he would have let my mommy come in and tell him stuff, but he said he had to hear it from just me! ~pouts~
And then i had to talk to this boring lady about financial aide stuff, so she could make sure my insurance pays for their services, and it does so that was over fast!
And then I had to talk to another lady who was kinda mean, she made it sound like I want to be sick, and so i don't work because of that, instead of listening that I really got like no immune system and not only that but now my blood sugars are all messed up and my blood pressusre too! But soon I got to talk to the last person of the day, and she is called a case manager, and she told me how they will have small group meetings, so i could meet other people who struggle with the same things I do, and also they have people who teach stess and anger management and lots of things I know I need.
Tomorrow is my councilor appointment....so that's all for now, my day was very very busy!!
These new meds are making me feel so blah! And it's likely I'll be put on more meds when I get back into mental health services again, but for now I'm just having horridlbe tummy pains, headaches, dizzyness, I hate it! i want to sleep like all the time! My doctor says to hang in for a little longer to see if the side effects go away on their own before we try anything else, but I'm so frustrated with it all!
I'm sneezing up a storm today!! I think something is blooming but it's really kinda icky.
I found out my new glucose meter will be delivered tomorrow and then it's back to poking myself everyday! But at least it will mean a better handle on the whole situation I hope. I'll be able to put things here then like what my blood sugar was, what I ate and even if it's nonsense to my friends i think it'll help me keep track of things and be more motivated in things. One day I want to buy a blood pressure cuff thing too.....so i can try and monitor my progress.
Well thats all for now!
I'm sneezing up a storm today!! I think something is blooming but it's really kinda icky.
I found out my new glucose meter will be delivered tomorrow and then it's back to poking myself everyday! But at least it will mean a better handle on the whole situation I hope. I'll be able to put things here then like what my blood sugar was, what I ate and even if it's nonsense to my friends i think it'll help me keep track of things and be more motivated in things. One day I want to buy a blood pressure cuff thing too.....so i can try and monitor my progress.
Well thats all for now!
I am having such a hard week. It's even hard to admit that. My blood sugar was way high up! I'd been so good on just diet and exercise, and now I had to go back onto meds, and i had to have high blood pressure meds an cholesterol meds and blah! And it's so very silly, because all of the horrible bad symptoms, I was so worried about well....the good news is....I don't have lupus, but my doctor does suspect I got arthritis, but right now he wants me to try and work on getting my diabetes and blood pressure under control, and so he thinks that will even help all the icky feelings I've been having too.
I also found out the reason my blood sugar is so crazy is....i thought it was just fine! wanna know why? Cause my blood sugar monitor needed new batteries, an so they are sending me a whole new one......err i dunno why they don't just send me a battery but I'm not complaining! So no finger pokes til it gets here yay! But I don't want to have them at all really....~sighin~
The new meds are giving me really icky side effects, like an upset tummy, and headaches and making me super sleepy! My doctor says it can take a few weeks for them to wear off, but I really hope they do soon!
I'm gunna have a super busy week next week. On Monday I go to the mental health center in town, I wasn't on meds for my schizoaffective disorder for a long time, what that means is I have symptoms of both schizophrenia and bi polar disorder, it's very confusing! But I need to get on meds again really bad because i have been so super moody and cranky and stuff. Then on Tuesday, I have my very first appointment with a new councilor....and that's going to be very scary for me too....I'll write more about that in my other blogs though....I'm just updatin on the icky med stuff mostly!
Well that's all for now!
I also found out the reason my blood sugar is so crazy is....i thought it was just fine! wanna know why? Cause my blood sugar monitor needed new batteries, an so they are sending me a whole new one......err i dunno why they don't just send me a battery but I'm not complaining! So no finger pokes til it gets here yay! But I don't want to have them at all really....~sighin~
The new meds are giving me really icky side effects, like an upset tummy, and headaches and making me super sleepy! My doctor says it can take a few weeks for them to wear off, but I really hope they do soon!
I'm gunna have a super busy week next week. On Monday I go to the mental health center in town, I wasn't on meds for my schizoaffective disorder for a long time, what that means is I have symptoms of both schizophrenia and bi polar disorder, it's very confusing! But I need to get on meds again really bad because i have been so super moody and cranky and stuff. Then on Tuesday, I have my very first appointment with a new councilor....and that's going to be very scary for me too....I'll write more about that in my other blogs though....I'm just updatin on the icky med stuff mostly!
Well that's all for now!
This new doctor is so very nice! He's chinese, so he is a bit hard to understand becase he is very soft spoken, but he really took time to listen to me, and i could tell right away, he really is going to be able to help me. After running alot of blood tests....(I have a huge bruise on my arm), and alot of actual talking, (this is so rare for me to see in a doctor) he has put me on quite a different set of drugs then I've tried in the past that he thinks might help me.....and his office was so helpful.....I saw a caseworker who says she can arrange for my meds to be delivered right at my house, and I have appointments with some other specialists scheduled for august, so hopefully, these meds will start to work, and I'll have some newer, better doctors on my side in the future, and I'll start feeling better!!
More later....exhuasted right now....
More later....exhuasted right now....
I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow with a brand new doctor, (my old one was a major jerk), and I'm mostly scared. Alot of doctors, well in my experience, have yelled at me whenever I have complained about certain symptoms and claimed it was all because I was diabetic, had high blood pressure, and didn't take care of myself. now those things can contribute to alot of things yes, but also, none of those doctors ever offered to help, they never sent me to diabetes classes, or told me things in my lifestyle to change, and since I didn't know, back then at least, I didn't do them an so now.....I have this big fat "non-compliant" on my record that makes doctors think I'm there to cause them major problems.
At any rate, I've been having lots of fevers, aches in my joints and have been so tired I sleep for like 18 hours a day sometimes, and so no matter what any doctor says it's not normal! So tomorrow, we leave at 1:30pm, to try and see what happens....and also this blog is set up, that in the event I'm put in the hospital, it can more easily be posted in by my family.
Which brings me to more about the not so sick me!
My name is Maya Papaya Hyperness Halien-Hunt.
but you can just call me Maya!~giggles~ I'm 6 years old and I have an amazing family. I have a mommy, and a 2 year old sister, named Issy, and an 11 year old sister named Leah, a 16 year old sister named Gala, an adult sister named Mae, and sometimes a 16 year old sister named Dawn....but she's goin' thru a rebellious stage so I get mad at her lots*noddin* I also got a brother, named Caleb, he's 7, which means he thinks he can pick on me cause he's bigger! ~humphs an giggles~
I also have lots of cousins, like shell_shell, she is 6 like me! And I also have cousins as part of da Halian family an lots of other people who care lots bout me. and an uncle and a cousin in real life who live in the same city as me!
I live in a big house in the country, we just moved here in June and it is a very awesome place to live, our neighbors have horses and other farm kinda animals, but we just have lotsa cats and 2 dogs named Lucky and Sierra. I like to have lots of adventures! I'd have them offline if I could go outside more so instead I just play as much online as I can. I'm mostly a really friendly person, I like to meet new people an make new friends!
And that's all for now!
~zoooooms~
PS. I have a super special sparkly purple princess zoomy chair! But I forget bout it lots cause I'm so busy playin!~smiles~
see ya'!!
At any rate, I've been having lots of fevers, aches in my joints and have been so tired I sleep for like 18 hours a day sometimes, and so no matter what any doctor says it's not normal! So tomorrow, we leave at 1:30pm, to try and see what happens....and also this blog is set up, that in the event I'm put in the hospital, it can more easily be posted in by my family.
Which brings me to more about the not so sick me!
My name is Maya Papaya Hyperness Halien-Hunt.
but you can just call me Maya!~giggles~ I'm 6 years old and I have an amazing family. I have a mommy, and a 2 year old sister, named Issy, and an 11 year old sister named Leah, a 16 year old sister named Gala, an adult sister named Mae, and sometimes a 16 year old sister named Dawn....but she's goin' thru a rebellious stage so I get mad at her lots*noddin* I also got a brother, named Caleb, he's 7, which means he thinks he can pick on me cause he's bigger! ~humphs an giggles~
I also have lots of cousins, like shell_shell, she is 6 like me! And I also have cousins as part of da Halian family an lots of other people who care lots bout me. and an uncle and a cousin in real life who live in the same city as me!
I live in a big house in the country, we just moved here in June and it is a very awesome place to live, our neighbors have horses and other farm kinda animals, but we just have lotsa cats and 2 dogs named Lucky and Sierra. I like to have lots of adventures! I'd have them offline if I could go outside more so instead I just play as much online as I can. I'm mostly a really friendly person, I like to meet new people an make new friends!
And that's all for now!
~zoooooms~
PS. I have a super special sparkly purple princess zoomy chair! But I forget bout it lots cause I'm so busy playin!~smiles~
see ya'!!