Today was really, really hard in an emotionally exhausting kind of way. I didn't expect it to be easy, even though I was surrounded by so many awesomely amazing friends and family, I was never alone for very long, and that helped immensely, just knowing I had people to lean on. I had probably hundreds of hugs and kind words sent my way, and it just helped me so much more then I could ever hope to express. There were times that I broke down into tears, times I got too over-sensitive and needed some extra time and patience, but today proved to me most of all that it's ok to need people, and it's ok to want to be held and it's ok to be loved and to accept that love. I feel so tired, but I'm happy because a day that used to be so scary for me, now has hope of being something healing, something that I can move forward from.
and maybe one day I'll look back at all of this and see how far I've come, and be able to smile. Today, it was simply enough to say that I survived, that I was brave enough to not let my past continue to rule me.
Another good memory placed on top of the bad.
and maybe one day I'll look back at all of this and see how far I've come, and be able to smile. Today, it was simply enough to say that I survived, that I was brave enough to not let my past continue to rule me.
Another good memory placed on top of the bad.
