Some times I want to feel seperate. Like not from anything or anyone specific, i just want to find myself, without the labels that go along with it.
Like in real life I don't want to be "that blind girl" or at the hospital be "that medical miracle". I don't always want to be "the zoomy one" an just different stuff I want to find who I really am deep inside.
I'm not sure if I can do that, but I want to, I want to see what everyone else says they see....it's just hard to break past those things, pull down the walls and really be myself.
Sometimes when I think about what really makes me "me", I don't even know, because I've spent so much time trying to please other people, that who I am, has gotten lost in the shuffle.
I'm trying to have the courage to accept all of the love around me, to accept that not only do I deserve it, but I deserve to have my own thoughts, opinions, likes and dislikes, and all of the things that go with being a real person, beyond the shell of a mask I hid behind for so long.
Like in real life I don't want to be "that blind girl" or at the hospital be "that medical miracle". I don't always want to be "the zoomy one" an just different stuff I want to find who I really am deep inside.
I'm not sure if I can do that, but I want to, I want to see what everyone else says they see....it's just hard to break past those things, pull down the walls and really be myself.
Sometimes when I think about what really makes me "me", I don't even know, because I've spent so much time trying to please other people, that who I am, has gotten lost in the shuffle.
I'm trying to have the courage to accept all of the love around me, to accept that not only do I deserve it, but I deserve to have my own thoughts, opinions, likes and dislikes, and all of the things that go with being a real person, beyond the shell of a mask I hid behind for so long.
