I thought today would be better, but it wasn't. It's not that I don't think it'll ever be better, just that even though whn I woke up this morning, and I felt "ok", I was still worn out emotionally from yesterdays events. And then today, I was feeling extra sensitive to stuff and it was just icky at times. So I was hidin' lots from people, an not wantin' to really let them in past any of my walls, I wanted to stay quiet, but I felt like stayin' quiet was lettin' my friends an family down, so I was forcing myself to talk to them at times, and then that felt horrible too.
So if I seemed quiet, whiny, grumpy and off today, it's not you....it's really me just working through lots of feelings, and I just needed a quiet day to think lots. Tomorrow will be better, i don't have any icky doctors appointments to fret over, and I have decided that tomorrow HAS to be better, it might not be great, but it's got to at least keep getting better, cause my family an friends keep tellin' me it will....so I just got to hold onto that hope.
So if I seemed quiet, whiny, grumpy and off today, it's not you....it's really me just working through lots of feelings, and I just needed a quiet day to think lots. Tomorrow will be better, i don't have any icky doctors appointments to fret over, and I have decided that tomorrow HAS to be better, it might not be great, but it's got to at least keep getting better, cause my family an friends keep tellin' me it will....so I just got to hold onto that hope.
